Life can be so confusing, how do you make a decision to do one thing or choose a path that will lead you through the rest of your life?
Today I stand if front of two doors.
Behind door 1, there is a life filled with big houses, a good paying job, 2 kids, great friends and a nice convertible car. Just a hard working All-American family dream.
Behind door 2, I see a life filled with adventure, living in Central America, teaching English and learning Spanish. Volunteering to help those less fortunate, and all still holding a great job via the US that will support my daily life.
Adventurous life or all-American life?
The question looms over my head. You see, a few months ago my boyfriend of three years proposed to me . I am so excited! He wants to spend the rest of his life with me and I love him deeply. But recently I began considering what would happen to all of those crazy dreams and aspirations that I have always had? I asked him if he would be willing to take part and he got angry and claimed that nobody likes their jobs and living by the "grass is always greener" theory gets people absolutely nowhere.
So here I am, confused and wanting to search for a deeper meaning to my life. Yesterday I realized that perhaps I do not have to "search for" a deeper meaning. I began wondering, why do I feel like I need to leave to find meaning in my life? Why can't I find meaning in the all-American dream and combine it with an adventurous life? Sure it won't be as exciting, but the stability of a family and a place to call home doesn't come cheap.
So instead of coming up with several options when faced with a challenging situation, find a way to combine the two and move forward rather than sit still and stir. Stirring hurts everybody around you and makes life more confusing. So for my doors, I have decided to take an annual trip to Central America. Rather than lay on the beach, I will volunteer with the communities and get this need to help others out of my system. While I am here, I will volunteer at the animal shelter and local schools that teach English as a Second Language.
